Blue Ballad

Arrghhh…
darn! Dang! Anything! Some terrible thought occupies my mind again…
I hate this! I hate it a friggin’ lot when it comes to losin’
someone. How the heck can it be that every time I get lose to
someone, I will SOON lose that person. Now, what do you want to say?
Coincidence? Come on… don’t let me repeat my stuff, please… I
don’t believe in such, haven’t I told you ‘bout this?

I
don’t know what to say… I don’t what to type. To be honest, my
head is more or less empty right now. Just letting my fingers flow
with my sentiment though, let’s just see where my sentiment will
lead my fingers to. When I first knew about this one, I was quite
concerned, yet I simply forgot it easily… however, the very next
day, I suddenly remembered this issue again and there I went,
stressed and blue. I just want to say things such as, “Man, there
are these girls around I can cherish, why bother with that stupid
friend of mine?” But, no! My conscience will never allow me to
think or do so. Too bad, eh? Still, it’s friendship we’re talking
about. Some things might be too bad, yet it’s worth defending. I
mean, if this is the REAL friendship we’re talking about, then this
nothing-to-lose state of mind we should have. ‘Cos you know what?
You met your friends far before you met your lover, your friends
encouraged you dang many times before your lover encouraged you even
for once. That’s why, this time, it’s my turn to show all of my
friends that I AM HERE to give them encouragement, to console them,
to support them, and also… to walk behind them making sure that
everything is just all right. That’s the sort of friends I really
believe.

You
know what? I somehow just know that I’m not a very likeable person.
I mean, I’m not the person most people have in mind when they need
someone to turn to. I’m not the type of person that people will
usually call to have a long chat in the phone, yet, they might call
me when they need me to do something. Well, that’s the kind of life
I lead… at least, I think so :p still, I just don’t care. I am
already contended this way. Sometimes life is not always about your
being acknowledged by others. Naïve, idealistic, ignorance, or
else you may throw at me. This heart will not waver anyway. I’ll
stick to my very basic principle: ningen wa hitorikiri nara, nani mo
dekinakatta

Well…
there go my words. I just don’t like talking about this. I just
want some people to know that, when some things aren’t feasible
alone, I am still here.

-friends
are not merely people to have fun with; they are people we want them
to support us when we need them, and they are also;  the people we
want to support when they need us. At least, this alone I believe.-