This Blog of Mine
There are an absurdly lot of complicated things in this world. Now, look! This whole time, I have been thinking of blog as a medium to pour all my ideas, feelings, thoughts, and else into. What do you expect anyway? I mean, it’s an online journal, an online diary we’re talking about. However, the thing is that blog is not a mere conventional diary, no ordinary diary, and that’s the problem… the very problem. Talking ‘bout the usual usual conventional diary, it’s just about God and me. Things might be very different with online diary, though… unlike the private conventional diary, people can trespass freely and go wild while commenting on it… now, that’s the problem I am talking about.
Let’s see… iieehh… I understand clearly how some of you have been hurt ‘cos of my harsh dictions and expressions. To tell you the truth, I never lose my cool in front of people before… almost never, but then, in front of black document, I lose it completely. Really couldn’t get a grip of it. Still, there’s no reason to make an excuse out of this. I am at fault and I should just face this one with courage. I should state this, I don’t have any intention to backstab, hurt, defame, or even crush anyone. It’s just my inability to control this wild instinct of mine and that’s why all my dictions go splashy.
Okay, for time being, I am tired of rattling on too much. In short, the things I want to do here are:
- I wanna say sorry to all those hearts wounded by the splash. Once again, it’s not my intention to do so. Still, I end up doing so. Well, you may find some things are difficult to forgive… but it’s okay. I know myself how hard it is to do so. It takes time… and if you do need one… the time is yours.
- Don’t say! I am imperfect and I realize it clearly that weaknesses and flaws haven’t abandoned this fragile self of mine. I am not yet satisfied with both my current state and ability. I am aiming to be better and I do struggle for it. I won’t take my imperfect being as an excuse though… but, still, I plead you to take this into your account.
- I wanna deliver some thanks to those who have been commenting on my posts. I thank you for being attentive, for being responsive, for reminding me to stay cool. I hope you can do further, though… I need you guys to warn me, to limit me, to remind me, to correct me…
- I also drop a thank on Inra’s mailbox for his wonderful input and suggestion. When I was just a mere chibi, he used to to share a lot of amazing thoughts and up to today, he still deserves my respect, even a dang numbers of ‘em… thanks, bro!
- I am a man of pride. Being humble doesn’t always mean to dump my pride elsewhere. I might have made a mistake, still… I believe what I have written doesn’t go wrong; it’s the way I express them that has gone wrong. To wrap this up, please digest my posts fresh-minded, and if, I really do wrong regarding the content, leave me a comment.
Yup! That’s it. Hope you can accept this… huff… now, let’s go back to my old favourite slogan: life is indeed difficult.
