Blue Ballad

I just reread the manga (comic) series of Yugi-oh and I just finished reading the final episode. It’s… great. I mean, it sure put a very great meaning for a separation. Heh, so we’re back to one of my most favourite topics, eh? Then, let’s start to talk about separation… again…

Some months ago, I finished reading the Yugi-oh series for the first time. Afterward, I wrote an article about separation. However, I wrote ‘em in Indonesian and I thought that it still needed some polishing. Too bad, I forgot to polish it and it went unpolished even ‘til this very moment. It’s not that big deal anyway as I intend to do thing from the very beginning. So, here I am, prattling ’bout some separation stuff again.

Ja… let’s start with the most essential question, in this post at least, what is separation? Just let me repeat this once again, WHAT THE HECK IS SEPARATION? There, if by any way you say you don’t notice this part, I’ll disembowel you for sure. What is separation? What’s so special about it that I got so excited pondering and talking about this stuff? Is there any meaning to it? Can’t answer, eh? Then, let us first go to the next question, have you guys experienced any kinds of separation? Physically or spiritually separated, or else? I bet most of you have and not only once. Yes, it is indeed the fact that we have experienced that we come to forget how painful, how agonizing a separation is. Note this before we go further, separation is painful. When it comes to separation, we feel sad, we cry, we are wounded. Whenever we must let go of someone we love, things can prove cataclysmic. We cry a lot, we feel that it is way too hard to let that person go. Why? Why should we cry whenever there is separation? I really believe one of the answers to this is that we feel we haven’t loved that person sufficiently. Why is it so? It’s simply because when people are around, we don’t realize how precious they are. I wanna share a bit. Long ago, when I was still in junior high school, I had a friend who died at around 22 or 23. One of his best friends told me that one of the thing he ever regret was the fact that he hadn’t got the chance to tell his dead friend, how he really loved his dead friend. Painful? You bet…

If we were given the power to turn back time, then, maybe, expression such as “too late” would never exist. Yes, we have this expression ‘cos we love procrastination that much that we are always late to realize thing and when we have come to realize ‘em, there is nothing left for us to do and there is no possibility for us to turn back time. We think that everything will just go all rite, then we keep on deferring all kind of love and kindness that we can share to the people we love. While we are doing so, time is running hastily ahead, still, before our eyes, time is only walking slowly, waiting for us to catch him. How come? It’s simply because we are blinded, blinded by all the comfort that is available for us this whole long. We always think it’s all rite to sacrifice your friends once or twice. Well, what’s the big deal? There are a lot of tomorrows ahead for us to offer them kindness to redeem for what we have done. Now, give me a proper answer; what can you do if God suddenly takes those people from you? What can you say if God putt those people in a place thousand miles far from you? Would you just end up regretting everything? Or maybe you would cry a dang loud? Or maybe, you can just walk a thousand mile just as in Vanessa Carlton’s song.

Let us try to be wise. We, who tend to please ourselves… let us put our ego aside for a while… We, who have been thinking of being loved as bliss… let us dump our selfishness somewhere for a moment. What will we find? We will find the fact that loving is far more pleasing than just merely being loved. Is that so? Yes! Out of all people you have seen in this world, who are probably the happiest? The rich people? No way! If riches are the only things you have, you can only live in fear. The successful people? Hah! You won’t bet on this one. Just to remind how stressful the life of an artist is. So? Who are the happiest people in this world? Some of them might be Mother Teressa. One who loved people without holding back anything. There was no fear that could overcome her heart. She was just ready to die if that would mean something for others. The others might be all the parents in this world who love their children sincerely. Worries and anxieties may occupy their heart, but just to see their children happy, those worries and anxieties will be cast away. In short, those who love will live in bliss. Don’t worry about being unloved. God loves you, you know? Just try to love more people as God’s steadfast love takes root in your heart every single new day. Now, take a silence for a moment, then take a look around. There are a lot of people for you to love. Do you really want to live happily? Then start with loving others!

Separation, thing that won’t be separated from our lives, this whole time is often accompanied by tears. For once again, separation has reminded us how precious people around us are. The family, the friends that we have now, it is not impossible for us to lose ‘em one day. If that so, instead of accompanying separation with tears, why don’t accompany one with smile? That will be better… maybe… how to do so? Well, each of us knows it better :p

Now, let’s go back to our very first question! What is separation? Is there any meaning to it? Our friends, our family, who have been along with us, suddenly disappear… what does that mean? I dunno… man, I really don’t know! But, you know what? If we really don’t know, then there is no use for us to understand such. What we need to do is engraving all the memories that we have been through with all of our dearest people together… in our hearts. That alone is enough.

Finally, this life is about each man’s story. Each man has their own story and by living according to God’s will alone, their story will end up in the brightest light ever. That’s why, no matter how many separations that take place in your life, no matter how sad and painful this life is, keep walking and pursue the light! GBU!

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