A Fight
To live is to fight. Life itself is a very large battlefield in which we fight without certain limit of time. We just never know when the battle will end. Often we experience grief in the battlefield, often we obtain painful memories, and often we lose something dear. Yet, we keep on going. We never run from this battlefield. If there is a question worthy enough to raise, it will be, “Why?” We often wonder why we keep on fighting even though we know we will reap sadness. Some people fight for their country; some others fight for their religion, some fight for their family, some fight for their friends or lovers, some others fight for themselves, and the rest fight to find a reason to fight. That’s just how life is; a place for us to fight to our extend, and that’s the way we can fulfill the meaning to our lives, or at least to give meaning to our lives.
There is a fight I am currently in. So long ago, I already had the feeling that I would definitely lose this one and that’s why, I decided to give this one up. Since the day I gave up, I felt… ieehh… somehow pathetic, stupid, miserable, and dumb. To be honest, I regret that decision. Drowned in sadness, I made up my mind. And here am I, back on the track. Fear still overcomes me; anxiety still enfolds me, but still… I want to end this with valour, no matter what the result is. I have come to understand that losing is not the matter of not obtaining your idealism in the end, nor it is about not having what you really want to have. In fact, losing is giving up when you have the opportunity to try and end it bravely; to sink in dissatisfaction when you have actually brought happiness through your effort. Then, what’s the meaning of winning? Well, to make it short, winning is not merely acquiring what you want, not even the matter of achieving your idealism. Winning has far greater meaning, it is about doing your best until the very end, and even more, winning is when your lives have been a great happiness for others. That’s why, this time, I won’t lose! Whatever may happen, I have decided not to lose this one…
Life is indeed troublesome. The very moment you realize that living this life is hell difficult, you will realize another thing that living this life alone will never be enough for you. There is always someone out there for you to cherish and when you’ve found that someone, that someone will be your happiness. In the end, satisfaction, happiness, bliss, joy, delight, and such are really one when you have someone to share with. That will probably be your grandest fight, and still… there is no way you will lose this fight, won’t you? ‘Cos there lays the meaning to your life and its fulfillment…
- life is not about you alone, it’s about you bringing happiness for others-
