Blue Ballad

It’s
been maybe almost a year since I last played Shadow Hearts 2:
Covenant, but still, somehow I could not get it out of my head. The
story of this game contains almost everything. It has comedy inside,
romance, and the complexity of a high class RPG. The game is about
Yuri Hyuga, a man who lost his lover as his lover tried to protect
his soul with her life. In this series, he met with another girl
named Karin Koenig. At the very beginning of the story, Yuri was
cursed by his foe by the use of a Holy Mistletoe. This curse would
cause him to slowly lose all of his memories and would slowly take
his life. Yuri then began a journey to purify the curse. Throughout
the story, Karin began to fall in love with Yuri. Ironically, the
reason she fell for Yuri was Yuri’s faithfulness and bottomless
love for his dead lover. During the whole story of this game, I was
moved every time I saw Karin’s insanely selfless devotion and love
for Yuri and also Yuri’s courage to give his all in order to
protect all the precious memories and the soul that his dead lover
used to love so much. Too bad that the script writer did not give
them an ideal happy ending. In the end, Karin was thrown into the
past and ended up marrying Yuri’s father while Yuri chose to end
his life as he didn’t want to lose his memories of his dead lover
(Spare me please! She’s only a dead lover). Well, I also heard this
very beautiful ballad song during the ending and ‘til today, this
song is one of my fave. Every time I listen to this song, deep
sadness envelopes my heart that I almost let out some tears as it
reminds me of separation.

Now,
actually I have faced a hell lot of separation, but the heck stuff
is… why do I suddenly feel that separation is painful? Yesterday
night, while I was still in Jakarta, I gave one of my friends,
Melody, a phone call as she plans to go to China next month. We chat
about a lot of stuff. Well, she showed her anxiety about living alone
in China. She’s afraid that she’ll suffer from homesick or she’ll
feel lonely. The fact is I, myself, am actually quite worried. This
girl has been quite a dear friend for me since we were in senior high
school. She’s two years older than me, but she’s a childish one.
I dunno what kind of life that she will live on in China and I dunno
how she will withstand the pressure from the environment, especially
when she is alone. The thought of not meeting her and the thought of
her being alone in China kinda drive me messy. Knowing this,
yesterday I gave her an absurdly lot of advices. She then suddenly
told me that I almost moved her to tears. Well… can’t really be
helped. She’s always like that and I’ve been consoling her for
quite a time, have been several years actually… it’s been better
nowadays. Somehow, she has found her happiness (hopefully, this time
is for real) and I don’t think I will see her crying for time
being, which is good cos’ seeing a dear friend crying is one of the
last things in the world I hope for it to take place.

So,
what’s the relevancy between the game and my story? Hehe… frankly
speaking, I don’t quite know ^_^ I just want to say that separation
sucks… but still, through separation we become matured. I believe
that separation is one of our most significant roads to live a better
life. In Shadow Hearts case, I believe that Karin knew that being
separated from Yuri was the best for her. The same goes for Yuri. He
must have known that being separated from his friends and died alone
was the best for him. I don’t know for Melody’s case cos’ I am
not the script writer of her life and I can’t predict future.
However, I somehow believe that, one day, if separation takes place
between us, it must be the best for her. Man… another blue day for
me… let’s call it a day then…

P. S:
For Melody, if somehow you bump into this purposeless blog (yeah,
don’t have any particular purpose in writing the whole heck stuff
here), promise me one thing, the very next time we meet, the very
next time we talk to each other, I don’t want to see or hear you
crying, kay? Huff… life is… foolish…

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