Blue Ballad

Dang J-dorama! I am TOTALLY absorbed into it. Arrgghhh! How come? How come? Andri’s at fault for introducing so may Japanese drama series! Andri’s fault… Andri’s fault… Andri’s fault… Andri’s fault… Andri’s fault… Andri’s fault… Andri’s fault… Andri’s fault… Andri’s fault… Andri’s fault… Andri’s fault… Andri’s fault… Andri’s fault… somehow it feels like I am cursing Andri with some spell ^_^ Well, think of it carefully, he’s not actually at fault… so? Who’s at fault?

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Arrgghhh!!! I am at fault! From the very beginning, it was me who was trying to watch J-dorama series! Taku… shinjirarenai!!! Puff… now, be cool, all rite? Huh… I am currently watching this J-dorama named Densha Otoko. It’s about a man who’s uncool, lame, not good looking, anti-sociable, and could hardly talk to any women. Then, he’s in love with a woman who’s gorgeous, beautiful, tall, slender, rich, and, and… everything! (side note: this woman’s starred by Itou Misaki, no wonder rite? She’s… arghh… just watch it for yourselves!). Okay, let’s match these two human beings together:

UNCOOL + LAME + NOT GOOD LOOKING + ANTI-SOCIABLE + COULD HARDLY TALK TO ANY WOMEN = GORGEOUS + BEAUTIFUL + TALL + SLENDER + RICH

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THERE’S NOW WAY IT WOULD HAPPEN, WOULDN’T IT? But, yes, in the series, it happened. Due to what? A series of coincidences? Nope, to be exact, due to the man’s courage. He was even shaking when he was trying to give a phone call to the woman. He had never called a girl before, even for once, imagine! He then started to ask advice from a forum on the internet and… all the forum member tried to support him, giving him advices, motivation, and else. Experiencing this, the man was moved; he then promised to be brave, for the sake of the woman he liked, and for the sake of the people on the forum. Well, since then, the man was able to draw the woman’s attention and not only that, some people on the forum also gained the same courage. They learnt from the man’s courage and made a lot of brave decision. It was kinda touching back then. I stopped watching every one episode to take a time to relieve myself and to wipe my tears (yeah, really! Even though I know it’s a script-written story, still… T_T).

I am… kinda envious, no! Maybe, I am… extremely envious… long ago, maybe 3 years ago, one of the most decisive journeys in my life was going to take place. I then decided to take one step further in my life, cos’ that’s what journey is about, to take another step further, even some time you might get lost. However, when the most decisive day arrived, I… was too afraid to take that step… fear overcame me, the fear of losing, the fear of failing… all of them overcame me that I pulled back my step and decided to stop there. Since that day on, even until today, I haven’t got the chance to continue that one step, my should be most precious step. Regretful? Me? No way… no, it’s a lie… yeah, I’m pretty regretful thanks to my cowardice back then. If I should compare myself with the man in the J-dorama series, I’m not as lame as him. I’m not that uncool, I am not that bad looking, am very sociable, and have talked to many girls, still… I don’t have as much bravery as his. Keh… what a coward I was… phew… I sometimes hope for another chance to carry on that journey, but… it seems impossible, at least for another 3 years… maybe it’s a punishment for a coward, eh? If, I have gone through those 3 years, maybe, I can have another chance. And if… that day has come, then, that time… definitely… kanarazu oshiemasu… aitsu no tame ni… 

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